And I passed! Hooray!
Sorry for the lack of posting but what with the OSCE and then we've an assignment due this week (which I've now finished)...there hasn't been a whole lot of time for blogging.
I am now heading into the final part of my course and the end is in sight....this is something that many people keep saying to me.It's nice to think of a time when I won't have exams looming and assignments due but at the same time it's quite nerve wracking. I will no longer have a safety net of a mentor and I can't pretend to be a first year and not know what I'm doing. I will be working under my own pin....the reality is quite scary. I am going to try and make the most of my final placements and really work hard to gain my confidence and particularly try to work in areas where I am the least confident.
Of course before I reach there I have a dissertation to write, a 4000 word assignment, another 12 weeks (I think) of placement and objectives to be signed off. I also need to complete my portfolio, my genetics workbook and start applying for jobs. Gosh there is still a lot to be done!
Whilst the future is scary in many ways, it's also quite exciting. I remember what it felt like when I was offered my place on the course. That wait for the phone call felt like forever, even though in fact I was lucky and I only had to wait a week when I know some have to wait months for an answer. I had an inkling of what the job would entail, having had my own children but the reality of being a student midwife has at times been quite challenging. I have had times when I've thought I can't do this, I'm going to fail, I don't enjoy working liking this and so on... However one thing that has kept me going throughout it all is the fact that when I am with a woman, whether in labour, antenatally or postnatally, I love what I do. I feel that I am helping to make a difference to her, even if it is only something very tiny. I want to do that every day. I want to support women to the best of my ability and to keep making a difference,
So fingers crossed for the remainder of my work and my results!